idk What I'm doing...

I spend time on here wondering what am I suppose to do. I'm aimlessly going through old group forums and all the 10,000 deviations and wondering what is it that I want. What do I want? years ago when I was drawing that shitty MS paint drawings with a mouse I craved one thing in my itty bitty mind... I wanted attention. I always wanted attention for my work. I still do. But idk- no, I've never known what to do to get to the point of the individuals that are prompted on my computer before me. People whose creativeness and imagination I've admired ever since I was told of this website. I love to draw, I love to create, I love telling and drawing and creating stories for people. I've been drawing since I was 4 and it was to get attention for the creativity I put on paper in image form. I just wanna be noticed with all the others that create glorious characters with intricate and creative background stories. I want to find groups I can get with and brainstorm and share with common interests and thought processes. I want to post shit people would think is cool and intriguing even if its wip's. I want a lot of things... ALOT. Most of what I asked to be rather simple of achieving and I'm just looking in the wrong direction. I have the tools I've always wanted since I got on this damn website, my skills with sketching have evolved and my imagination is fluid with plenty of ideas for creating things... but idk what I'm doing... I never had. Sorry if you wasted your time reading through my rant, its probably a futile thing to post on here. thanks for reading it anyway if ya did, much appreciated.